Route change on the road of LIFE...
All summer as I tried to plan our 3rd homeschool year I just kept coming up against roadblock after roadblock. Nothing was coming together despite hours and hours of planning. As September loomed closer and closer I began to panic.
Rewind to June 2008 as I entered the local elementary school for my son's kindergarten orientation. As a homeschooling mom, I was dead set against my son going to public school but wanted to honor my husband's wishes (it was just going to be for kindergarten; we were going to keep him home afterwards) so I went to the orientation. What I saw there took me by surprise; I saw an amazing jazz band; wonderful art work on the walls; happy children; a wonderful atmosphere and a really outstanding staff of teachers and a very caring principal. I did not intend to see anything positive so it's not as if I were conscientiously looking for something that would change my mind. But change my mind it did....
Fast forward to August: as I relaxed one evening considering our upcoming school year, I wondered why I wasn't getting an answer to my prayer about whether or not to homeschool. As I pondered I realized that I had received an answer, it just wasn't the one I was anticipating. My homeschool year wasn't coming together because it wasn't in God's plan for me and my family. He answered me in this manner. Imagine my shock when I figured that out! I immediately felt comfort knowing that I had finally figured out the Lord's answer for me. I talked it over with my hubby and we decided that if I were ever to put the kids back into school that this would be the best time. I wouldn't want to do it for gr. 7 and I certainly wouldn't want to put our eldest into a school situation when she had to face being a gr. 8'er. If ever they were to go back, this was the time.
So now I am no longer a homeschooling mom. I will still be teaching my kids but now it'll be because I *want* to and not because I *have* to. I feel a sense of loss as I once again have to re-identify who I am. I'm no longer a homeschooler....that's going to be weird! I don't know what my Heavenly Father has planned for me, I just know that He's never answered my prayer about homeschooling in the affirmative; even in past times when I homeschooled I know I did it against His wishes. So, there's a new direction, a route change, a new turn in my life's journey. I hope I'm ready for it!
Whatever it is I know I'll be able to do it with the Lord's help.
I just hope he gives me time to sew some curtains and clean my house first! :)
Wish me luck!
Rewind to June 2008 as I entered the local elementary school for my son's kindergarten orientation. As a homeschooling mom, I was dead set against my son going to public school but wanted to honor my husband's wishes (it was just going to be for kindergarten; we were going to keep him home afterwards) so I went to the orientation. What I saw there took me by surprise; I saw an amazing jazz band; wonderful art work on the walls; happy children; a wonderful atmosphere and a really outstanding staff of teachers and a very caring principal. I did not intend to see anything positive so it's not as if I were conscientiously looking for something that would change my mind. But change my mind it did....
Fast forward to August: as I relaxed one evening considering our upcoming school year, I wondered why I wasn't getting an answer to my prayer about whether or not to homeschool. As I pondered I realized that I had received an answer, it just wasn't the one I was anticipating. My homeschool year wasn't coming together because it wasn't in God's plan for me and my family. He answered me in this manner. Imagine my shock when I figured that out! I immediately felt comfort knowing that I had finally figured out the Lord's answer for me. I talked it over with my hubby and we decided that if I were ever to put the kids back into school that this would be the best time. I wouldn't want to do it for gr. 7 and I certainly wouldn't want to put our eldest into a school situation when she had to face being a gr. 8'er. If ever they were to go back, this was the time.
So now I am no longer a homeschooling mom. I will still be teaching my kids but now it'll be because I *want* to and not because I *have* to. I feel a sense of loss as I once again have to re-identify who I am. I'm no longer a homeschooler....that's going to be weird! I don't know what my Heavenly Father has planned for me, I just know that He's never answered my prayer about homeschooling in the affirmative; even in past times when I homeschooled I know I did it against His wishes. So, there's a new direction, a route change, a new turn in my life's journey. I hope I'm ready for it!
Whatever it is I know I'll be able to do it with the Lord's help.
I just hope he gives me time to sew some curtains and clean my house first! :)
Wish me luck!
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